playing God

i have observed myself trying to play God, often..

assuring people that the pariharams i suggest will magically transform their problems into opportunities.

i have seen many a cancer patient die, inspite of my assurances..

i have seen myself waiting year after year for right things to happen....

but still, i don't feel too guilty..

i am only trying to be of help..

by giving more confidence..

by offering a new perspective..

when my pariharams work.. i know..God is indeed kind..to them..and to me..

and when it doesn't, i console myself.. there's karma to be dispensed..

astrology is a great science. BUt it just can't define God's actions.

Oh God, may i be a good medium to you. May i be a part of You.. may i be YOU..